saudade

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i haven’t done shit with my summer but yeah, you can see that for yourself right here right now

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Porn, dirty stinking, horrible porn right here, right now and you are looking at it. You will go to hell for this. -David Shrigley

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This is what I was doing year ago
Sorry I do that to myself sometimes
And now I am doing it to you!
It was funner when my Myspace blog still existed (WANKERS!!!!) because I could go back and be like “i wonder what i was doing on august 7th in 2007” and pretty much always it was something way awesomer than 2013 lemme tell you that

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you might recognize these from instagram
after booting off i am now HERE

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i did take a lot of photos from my regular camera but they got deleted somehow

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and the camera i have right now has the zoom broken so it has caused a lack of alacrity to pull it out

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since it sucks. so the plan is to buy a new camera at staples tomororw that works and build back some enthusiasm for using a camera again

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when i think of my friends who are still shooting film and developing it and blogging it makes me feel liek such weak sauce

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like the laziest in the world

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i need to push myself harder, i think i mgiht have even gotten lazy at gallery

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there is so much to do here and i think i get used to things and forget that i must always have fire under butt i must always be hungry and always going extra mile

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no room for laurel resting, though i don’t know the etymology of that one

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oh last night!!! some guy taught me this great etymology that i had never heard of
what the fuck was it

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i’ve gotten into this habit of hanging out with serious drinkers and drinking shots instead of regular drinks and then waking up in my clothes going WHERE AM I

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it’s not cool. i like to wake up in pyjamas or at least naked

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ha ha yeah right like ive been on a date in months
ha ha yeah right like i would only sleep with someone i went on a “date” with

sorry i am just being a self-asshole ill stop

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Jay Z and Sandra Gehring went on a date!
it was cute
there were a lot of people watching

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oops i have more Jay Z but these are outta order

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this is what i have actually been practicing this summer because i realized

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one night in July when i was baking cupcakes out of loneliness

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that i have no friends and have to do something about that fast

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i always just left the gallery to be my friend magnet, because i learned really quick when i got hired at deitch that all i had to say in new york was that i worked at deitch and all these people wanted to be my friend all of a sudden

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looks like i had an important meeting somewhere
i only wear necklaces when i have meetings

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hmm. i guess posting instagram photos on this kinda lets me tweak the levels and make them a bit better

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and lets me post shit like this i think
unless photobucket catches it with their Butt Algorithm

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i put all my friend eggs in one egg basket and that basket is still in the fucking UK for another two weeks

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need more baskets, more eggs, more people to make omelets for, more metaphors, more everything!

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Seymour Butts

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Barbeque face

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more graffiti, more hugs

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etc

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etc

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i turned the dick pasta into some kinda salmon dill salad thign it turned out pretty good actually

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whatever the boy orders is always better tho

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one lovely day last month!

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this thing
denmark’s dog has invaded the gallery and is slaying everyone with that fucking face!@

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remember when dash spent a whole night tryign to get ry to put his dick on this shelf? we had built the shelf and everythign but he woudlnt do it

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there we go!
knew there was some more embarrassing white dancing at the jay Z thingie

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i have a lot of thoughts on this but i just finished this interview about it so i dont wanna talk about it any more righ tnow

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this place rules

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one ill advised night i decided to try making “green bean casserole”

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i bought a bike!
but it is currently in the Funch stables in greenpoint with the rest of its kind until i go pick the stupid thing up

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this!
you can see more of that when I go visit may in montauk soon
i promise to bring real camera
but baby isnt down to be on the internet so you dont get baby

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i wear this hat all the time now

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i still huddle in the office during events and hope no one notices me

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toilet paper

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munisipal waste

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lost lock and found

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driving to DC to pick up my art book collection i had plopped on my parents

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summer reading
super meta

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amazing Alex Rodriguez box of paintings from Bogota!

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more TP

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some intern action

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some sidwell friend behaviours

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vizie blocked me on instagram
isnt that sweet of him

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sandy kim maggie lee vice photo issue collabo awesome

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dash
whenever he or i or whoever was caught up in some kinda too many girlfriends/boyfriends too much fooling around oops situations he would make this face and go “situations galore”

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just words

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THIS well this as you know has been a thing happening in july, a big thing! i have had a rollercoaster of feelings so far and im sure more to come!

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these are all from this super photogenic birthday party for asger i went to

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super photogenic

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jeffrey deitch show 1992
its funny that people acted all like he was just a “dirty” art dealer when he has curated more museum shows than most museum curators

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ahoy

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sometimes i take ambien to fall asleep and wake up to some weird shit
if you ever got an email from me that sounded like this photo looks, please delete!

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my PG Wodehouse obsession IS getting worse!

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hipsters

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argh that DOG!!!!

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cehcekd out the new KARMA bookshop and glalery around the corner

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scribblin

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I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE

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i burned myself with a cigarette trying to drain some gnocchi
i guess peg bundy made smoking while cooking cool but it is NOT!

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why not indeed

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did a wee lower east side gallery walk with paul bright

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ceramics are SO in right now

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all you artists go out and buy some CLAY trust me i am an art dealer with my finger on the market

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home alone 2 gallery

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oops spell check!

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S – PO?

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our intern has a crush

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i tweeted earlier this summer “It’s boner season” but i was wrong

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some great sunday studio visits!

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scott hug

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ok i guess i DO have a lot of photos to post so i promise to buy a camera tomororw, shoot some photos, and then post the rest of these instagramatical leftovers

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i’m sure like me you are hungry for more

Author: admin

I am the owner of downtown contemporary art center THE HOLE! I am arts editor at i-D magazine I paint paintings and curate art shows all around

4 thoughts on “saudade”

  1. Stars belong on the big screen.
    You are big.
    It’s the pictures that got small!
    This Blog trumps insta small.
    Welcome back Star.

  2. Facts is facts: if you’re waking up *still dressed* not knowing where you are, you needed one more shot.

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