i went home to DC for the weekend to visit my sick Grandma in PA with my parents
not the funnest task
actually quite excruciating
my parents have adopted these wild cats, much to the irritation of my mucous membranes
rainy spring
long drive to Windber, PA
i had never been to an old folks intense home situation before
i just sat on the bed and cried for the first half hour or so
she didnt notice so i dont think i was making her feel bad or anything
grandma always wore matching sweatsuit outfits
i had one year, i think 6th grade? where i tried to imitate her and only wore matching sweatsuits
they have these moving, purring cat toys there for the people to pet
i couldnt get out of there fast enough but then the crushing guilt of having felt that way descends
driving home there were all these rainbows
made me partially reconsider my wish for a swift immediate death at age 70 or so
made me feel sad too
that night i went to hang out with my brother and my high school friend nikki
we played ping pong
and went to some bar where billy was talking about low income housing lobbying or something with the bartender and i tuned out
the next morning i felt a little better
tuna salad
and then….cherryblossoms!
people everywhere from all over the place visiting, speaking in different languages, taking pictures
blah blah the trees were a gift from japan, blah
they feel good against your face
they feel good on babies
sleeping ducks like them
children pick them
families like them
lonely people like them
kathy likes them!
sigh
these are my parents walkin back to the car
this is me catching up to lend another arm
with a possibly stiffened upper lip i got on the train to come back here
i love trains
not to mention the high-speed graffiti tour
graffiti whizzin by, the onslaught, the energy, wow, fresh!
sarcasm mixed with genuine interest, as per usual
pulling into Philadelphia Penn Station
in case that was too fast for you, here is a fun visual aid
have i explained “team monster” on this before?
it is a useful tool as well
almost home
to my sweet thing who made mushroom fajitas
this is me this morning like a sad pile still
lets look at some random photos from my parents’ iphoto since i am clearly not interesting or interested and just slobbin my cereal around
hey!
miami suprise family vacation photos
they like to take photos of me eating
they like to take photos of their wild cats
yay its me and pat!
they made us breakfast in bed
this is cheering me up a small fraction
and if you are like me and inclined to be dirgey, here are some spring baby birds for you
birth, death, birth
ditto!
ditties!
