dirges and ditties

March 31st, 2009


i went home to DC for the weekend to visit my sick Grandma in PA with my parents
not the funnest task
actually quite excruciating


my parents have adopted these wild cats, much to the irritation of my mucous membranes


rainy spring


long drive to Windber, PA


i had never been to an old folks intense home situation before
i just sat on the bed and cried for the first half hour or so
she didnt notice so i dont think i was making her feel bad or anything


grandma always wore matching sweatsuit outfits
i had one year, i think 6th grade? where i tried to imitate her and only wore matching sweatsuits


they have these moving, purring cat toys there for the people to pet
i couldnt get out of there fast enough but then the crushing guilt of having felt that way descends


driving home there were all these rainbows


made me partially reconsider my wish for a swift immediate death at age 70 or so


made me feel sad too


that night i went to hang out with my brother and my high school friend nikki


we played ping pong


and went to some bar where billy was talking about low income housing lobbying or something with the bartender and i tuned out


the next morning i felt a little better


tuna salad


and then….cherryblossoms!


people everywhere from all over the place visiting, speaking in different languages, taking pictures


blah blah the trees were a gift from japan, blah


they feel good against your face


they feel good on babies


sleeping ducks like them


children pick them


families like them


lonely people like them


kathy likes them!


sigh


these are my parents walkin back to the car


this is me catching up to lend another arm


with a possibly stiffened upper lip i got on the train to come back here


i love trains


not to mention the high-speed graffiti tour


graffiti whizzin by, the onslaught, the energy, wow, fresh!
sarcasm mixed with genuine interest, as per usual


pulling into Philadelphia Penn Station


in case that was too fast for you, here is a fun visual aid


have i explained “team monster” on this before?


it is a useful tool as well


almost home


to my sweet thing who made mushroom fajitas


this is me this morning like a sad pile still
lets look at some random photos from my parents’ iphoto since i am clearly not interesting or interested and just slobbin my cereal around


hey!
miami suprise family vacation photos


they like to take photos of me eating


they like to take photos of their wild cats


yay its me and pat!


they made us breakfast in bed


this is cheering me up a small fraction


and if you are like me and inclined to be dirgey, here are some spring baby birds for you

birth, death, birth
ditto!
ditties!

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